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To Love Honour and Disobey

By:Natalie Anderson

To Love Honour and Disobey
Natalie Anderson

       Chapter One

ANA didn't know what she was going to do with all the photos. She'd  taken hundreds-and hadn't the heart to delete a single one of them. Good  thing she'd brought an extra couple of flash cards with her. Africa was  everything she'd hoped it would be-wide, wild and incredibly hot.  Totally different from anything she'd experienced and she sought to  capture it-so she could hold onto the sense of freedom when she returned  home.

Even now, with the truck pulled over to the side of the road on the  outskirts of Arusha, she had her camera up and ready. She leaned her  head over the side to see what it was that Bundy, the driver, was doing.  Talking to someone. She could see him smiling up at the stranger who  had his back to her.

Ana smiled too, enjoying the view. Bundy's friend was quite a specimen  of a male. Ana let the sensation wash over her-for the first time in  almost a year having a pleasurable physical reaction to a man. A sliver  of excitement sparked in her belly, the momentary wondering-what if? She  wriggled in her seat and angled her head for a better look. Oh, yeah. A  definite what if.

She giggled. Fantastic, finally she was back to normal. Whole, healthy  and actually able to feel a touch of sexual heat. She lifted the camera,  clicked a couple of times. And then zoomed.

Denim shorts showed off strong, bronze calves and hinted that the thighs  were equally muscular. Hands rested on narrow hips accentuating a great  butt. But it was the shoulders that got her. His torso was one hell of a  wide triangle-so wide the fabric of his shirt pulled slightly at the  seams. Broad, broad shoulders that were built to be hung onto. The kind  of physique to make a woman feel ultra feminine-and as Ana was such a  giantess she needed a big man to make her feel feminine. Unfortunately  there weren't enough of them around, and when she did find the  occasional one he was never interested in her. For some reason big men  always seemed to want petite women. But she could forget that reality  for now and just enjoy this present fantasy. She took another picture.  His hair was cropped close-almost army kind of close. The tips of her  fingers tingled, wondering what it would be like to run her hands over  his scalp. Interesting.

But the best thing definitely was his height. Bundy wasn't short but  this guy was a good half head taller than him. Being so horrendously  tall herself, Ana had always been drawn to very tall men and he had  height in abundance. In fact this guy-from the back at least-had  everything. Now if only he'd turn around and fulfil the whole fantasy of  male-model gorgeousness.

She shifted her grip on the camera, wriggling her fingers to let out the  tension sparking in her muscles. Sex. She was actually thinking about  sex.

Wow.

She half laughed again and took another picture. Knowing it was stupid  but loving the freedom to enjoy a beautiful male. She hadn't thought  she'd ever have it in her again. After the hell of the last year it was  great to discover she did. All she had to do now was return to London  and hopefully find the paperwork complete. At last she could get on with  everything. She'd known coming here was the right thing to do. And now  she'd had the final proof of her recovery and the return of her zest for  life-and her libido.

Bundy turned and the two men walked away from her around the front of  the truck where she could no longer see them. No matter, she looked at  the screen on her camera, smiled her way through the few snaps of the  handsomest back view of a boy she'd ever seen.

Ever.

She smiled again. She was over it. She was finally, totally over it.

There was a bang and a bump and the truck jolted forward-on the move  again. She glanced up as the others called out. It took a moment for her  to realise there was someone new on board and that her fellow  passengers were saying hi to him. That he was slowly walking down the  aisle towards her. His gaze direct, relentless and inscrutable.

Ana hadn't known it was possible to be frozen by flaming heat. She  couldn't move, couldn't think and couldn't believe her eyes. Yet somehow  she was breathing, somehow she was seeing and sadly there was no  denying who she was seeing. And she had to believe it.

'Seb?' Did she even say it aloud?

He was the one wearing denims cut off at the knee and the casual tee  that totally showed off his broad shoulders. He was the one with his  hair cropped sexy soldier short. He was the one standing so tall and  making Bundy laugh.

He was the one inspiring her frisky fantasy-the first she'd had in months.

Oh, my, it was too ironic.

She blinked, hoping like hell she was seeing things.

But no. It really was Sebastian.

Her brain sent instant freeze messages to the melting softness in her body. She had just been eyeing up her ex.                       
       
           



       

Sebastian Rentoul. Her one and only one-night stand. Her one and only week-long fling. Her one and only whirlwind wedding.

Her husband. The father of her baby.

Her husband who had lied. Her baby who had died.

A thousand images flashed in the space of a second. The heat and light  in the bar, the thrum of the beat as they'd stood so close, the lust in  the touch, the laughter as they'd come together and uttered those  foolish words. The anger in discovery of betrayal and miscommunication.  The anguish in her lonely loss.

She hadn't been granted the joy of knowing her child. Looking back on  it, she hadn't known her husband either. The man she'd fallen for was a  fiction-a fantasy in her own needy head and heart.

It was excruciating what a fool she'd been. And the resulting pain had almost broken her completely.

Suck it up, Ana. Suck it up.

It was done. In the past and she was over it. She wasn't going to fall  apart at the mere sight of him. For one thing he didn't know the half of  it. And she didn't want him to. She blinked again. He was coming  towards her. She reeled it all in-stuffing the memories, and emotion,  into her internal prison and padlocking the door. She shut off the  camera and set it on her lap, not wanting him to see the pictures she'd  just been giggling over. Good grief. That she'd just felt the burn for  him?

She looked down. Moved faster when she saw it, twisting the thick  platinum band off her finger. He definitely didn't need to see she still  wore his wedding ring. She hadn't taken it off in all these months.  She'd been going to. Of course she had. But she'd been told wearing one  was something a lone woman traveller could do to try to deflect unwanted  interest-and as she'd had it already …

She tucked it into her camera case. Even so, her tan exposed a pale ring  of skin on her finger. But she could do nothing about it now. He  wouldn't notice-he wouldn't be getting that close. She darted another  look.

He was almost right beside her. Had a smile on but it wasn't full  strength. Not the knockout 'come party with me' number he'd hit her with  that first night. Even so it was enough to shoot her temperature up.  Too unfair that a guy like him should be given such a gift.

She summoned a bright smile of her own, ignoring her scattered insides. Pride dictated she keep it together.

'Wow. Sebastian.' OK so she sounded a little breathless. No surprise given the way her thoughts and her blood raced.

Unbelievable. Here he was looking totally at home as if he were the one  who'd been on safari in Africa for the best part of the month. He even  had a tan-she knew it took only moments in the sun for his skin to go  that gorgeous burnished brown. It had done that during those few crazy  days in Gibraltar. Oh, hell, she didn't need to think of that again.  From every angle heat crawled over her body, zeroing in on her middle.

'Ana.' He didn't sound breathless. But he did sound quiet. He nodded at the empty seat next to her. 'Mind if I sit here?'

Her smile became that little bit fixed. 'Not at all. Please.' She  shifted on her own, moving that imperceptible half-inch nearer the side  of the truck and away from him. Her heart thudded harder, all senses on  acute alert as she clamped on the muscles.

No way, no way, no way. He couldn't be here. And she couldn't be  thinking about … what she'd been thinking about. Not about him. 'Fancy  seeing you here,' she said. 'Africa. Of all places.'

He sat and the devilishness showed in his grin. 'Quite some coincidence, isn't it?'

'Quite.' As if it really were. 'Who told you I was here?'

'No one,' he said innocently. 'It really is a coincidence.'

Yeah, right.

He turned, watching her too close, sitting too close. 'Oh, I got the divorce papers.'

Oh, so he was just going to throw that in casually, huh? Ana made her smile even sweeter. 'Did you sign them?'

Please, please, please. Then this really would be over.

'Not yet.'

Her heart skidded.

'I wanted to see you first.'

'Oh.' Why? Hadn't everything been said and done? Or rather not said and  not done, which was frankly the way she'd prefer to keep it. They  totally didn't need a post-mortem. It had been a stupid, mad mistake and  the best thing to do now was wipe the slate clean and move on. Away  from each other and as fast as possible given how her body was reacting  in such an off-base kind of way.

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